hello it s me river

[river]

heollo every one mssed you all i lam not here to cry today i am letting you all know i lmade it through the first rough time in my six months.. i did not let go and give in to the easy and softer way,, my next step after those i had just taken rippen away my jpride and justify (which i looke up in the dictionary to see how in my case it was used) i came out with a strong self of confidence and how i feel about myself is courage. I am now to take away my fiestiness and allow myself to be vulnerable and not cover up what i am afraid of.. My sponsor and i talked some on me talking around things explaining the self not being direct.. it is fear based and what i fear is being riduculed and walked away from yeah its sad i feel sad it brings up emmotions i hadn't seen before.. now the key ist How do I do lthis? other things are going on also my boyfriend and i have the same charges he went to court yesterday and it doesn't look good, i am italian hes african american and here in these parts to t he law I am a victim in his world He taken me hostage is how they see it and this makes me so mad because first off it was my idea i talked him into doing the crime , there is my defense mode kicken in and wantting to tell the judge hes so wrong there is so much crime i committed an never gotten caught for, crime i done alone.// if he goes back to prison i dont know how much more i can take i am not leaving his side, i'm with him all the way i just wish our road was at an end.. and we begin our life again clean and healthy well much love And God Blessing you alll River

[soberaddy]

First honey, as the BB suggest we do, we need to clean up the reckage of our past. That is not always easy and comfortable to do, but so far you have come through many obstacles and feel courageous and more self-confident as a result (as you said). Just for today, hang in there and try not to think of the big picture, go to meetings, pray to your HP, share with us always, and you will be fine.

I am looking forward to be with you on your journey, as we all do I'm sure, and share with us anytime.

May God be with you always!

Love;

Anne

[free2bunme]

Hey River:

I am looking forward to be with you on your journey, as we all do I'm sure, and share with us anytime.

May God be with you always!

Love;

Anne
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God Loves You, and so do I

I couldn't have said it better.

I think it is wonderful that you are choosing to walk THROUGH this pain, rather than over it or under it or around it. God will not give you anything you can't handle. This too shall pass, I promise you. Keep up the good work.

With love in recovery,

[Misselle]

Hang in there - I will be praying for you (for what it is worth to you).

[river]

your prayers are worth alot to me . I dont know how i can live with out prayer i pray for those who hurt me and they dont even know i am praying prayer is worth for all

[river]

i also am glad you are here on my journey with me you can imagine you been there but i am happy