missin my booze

[nevaeh039]

whats up party people? my name is heather...i am an alcohol abuser who has trouble thinking i am an alcoholic. either which way, i belong here...i have not had a drink in 8 days and have only had a few urges in those 8 days. been to 2 meetings where i sat and listened, not really participated. i do not want to talk even though i realize these people know where i am coming from. i enjoyed the meetings and got that the program works. i am trying hard to get thru these urges... thinking just for today style. i must admit a part of me WANTS to give in desperately. i can literally taste it in my mouth. i crave it. but i do know that i cannot have it. sad for that i am. i miss my hooch! i feel bad for saying it but its honest. someone give me advice!

[soberaddy]

Well Heather, thank you so much for being here and for being honest. Your new found family will supprt you in any ways that we possible can. I remember the cravings and the going out of my mind part so what I did (it was suggested to me), I kept busy and got lots and lots of phone numbers from ladies at meetings. We went for coffees, movies, walks, or we just talked...... actually they talked and I listened. See you say you didn't participated in meetings, but I tell you what, you have honey. Just by having a seat on that chair helped you and may have helped others as well. So, don't be afraid to go to lots of meetings, ask for help, and as you mention just live for today. I am really proud of you and your honesty

My name is Anne I am an alcoholic/addict from BC, CAnada sober for 3.5 yrs. Anything I can do, please let me know.

[zoomie]

Hi Heather, thank you too for being honest. We all at one point miss our drinking,it comes and goes. Anne gave great advice above. Keep coming back!

I'm Kai, grateful alcoholic.

You will meet some of the best people on the planet in this program. People who want NOTHING from you, only sincerely want you to find a happier, healthier way of living.

Keep coming back. You may find something in this program that you want.

Love ya later. Kai

[admin]

Hi Heather, Anne made some great suggestions. Also like zoomie said, we have all missed the drinking at one point or another but when I do, I remember what it was like and what happened to get me here and I have no wish to repeat that.

My sponsor told me I could drink or eat anything that I wanted as long as it contained no alcohol. When I sobered up, it was during the summer. At the end of my drinking, I drank beer. So during that summer if I happened to get a taste for or thought of a nice, cold beer I would have a glass of Lime-flavored Perrier water instead and that really helped me. I don't have to do that now but in the beginning it did help. I also kept some type of candy on hand. Some people cannot have sweets because of health issues. The way I understood it is that during the sobering up time my body missed the sugar that was in the alcohol so instead of drinking I ate something sweet. My sponsor did have me on a couple of occasions take a TB of honey and drink lots of water. She also had me keep myself busy. I also prayed, went to meetings. I arrived early and stayed late at meetings to help out before and after and to also talk to others.

Continue to stay in today and going to your meetings. I don't see where you mentioned having a sponsor yet, I suggest finding one. Having a sponsor has been very helpful in my recovery. Call the others on your phone list. Also please feel free to continue to come here and share with us. We are here for you also.

Love,
Tammy

Hello Heather
Picking up that 1000 pound phone was tough for me - but seeing people face to face in meetings made me realize I wasn't alone. Their stories sounded so familiar. Some hit a bottom that was so much lower - some never experienced a lot of trauma but got smarter quicker than others. It took a while but I started to share too.

One thing that really helped me was journaling. Also writing letters to those I had hurt helped me get over some of the guilt for my behavior. Some were mailed but most were not. I was told to give it a few months and then go back and read what I had written.

I hope you keep coming back to share. This is a great place 24/7 - non-judgmental, open, honest, caring members.

cassie

[janbear]

Heather, I took am proud of your honesty. Like it has been said, get some phone numbers, talking to others honestly will help get you through.
I remember early on for me in recovery hearing that phrase, "One day at a time", that struck me too, and helped, but there were times that even seemed to long so i would break it down in smaller increments of time. Take it 10 minutes at a time or less if need be.

[Prescott]

Hi Heather, When i frist came to the program of AA I knew I had a drinking problem but was sure I wasn't one of them (alcoholic's) I stayed sober about 2 1/2 months and then went on a 1 1/2 year run. Which took me to jails where I did 6 months and the day I got out I was drunk within the frist hour for the next week. So when i came back to the rooms of AA I could no longer doubt I was one of them a real alcoholic. That when my life changed and I haven't looked back that day was 8/8/97. Welcome to our group. Look forward to getting to know you. keep coming back.

[Doraine]

& Heather. Don't worry about participating at meetings you can learn more about how to stay sober by listening. Get a sponser so you'll have someone to talk to and a guide to the steps. Start by getting lots of women's phone numbers so you can choose one of them to be your sponser. Pray to have the obsession removed. I promise you it gets better one day at a time.