~ PATIENCE ~

[janbear]

~ PATIENCE ~

Patience and diligence, like faith, remove mountains.



William Penn



When I first came into the doors of this program, I didn't even know what abstinence was. I thought I was on a diet. It turned out to be far more than I ever imagined. In the short time I've been in program, I've had perfect abstinence, I've lost weight and my physical, emotional and spiritual well-being has changed more than I ever thought possible.


I've come so far in this program ... beyond my wildest dreams ... yet, sometimes it feels like it's still not enough. I'll weigh myself one month and think, "Is that all I've lost? Why couldn't I have lost more?" It's times like this when I try to remember how I was before program, going through diet after diet only to fail again and again. What difference does it make if I don't lose weight as fast as somebody else or as fast as I feel that I should? It's not a race or a competition. It's not even about how little or how much I weigh. It's about finding peace and recovery and happiness within myself. My body feels great, my mind feels wonderful and I'm happier and closer to God than I ever thought I could possibly be. How could I ask for anything more?


One day at a time...
I pray my Higher Power gives me the strength to continue my abstinence, the courage to be patient with my progress, and the wisdom to remember that My physical, emotional and spiritual well-being is a far more precious gift than any number the scale could ever show.


~ Cynthia ~