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Cody1958 · 10-05-2006, 06:12 AM

Hello Everyone. Here's alittle about me. I just thought that maybe it would kind of help some out and also, it is just alittle about me, so some of you can get to know me abit more.
I am a recovering Herion addict. I also have Persitis in my hips. Arthritis in my lower back and three herniated disc in my lower back, so I have three kind of pain going on. I started taking Percacets about three yuears ago because of my pain. I had 6 years clean and sober at that time. I thought to myself.. Hmmmmm, you have six years clean, you can take a percacet or two for your pain.. and so I did. and I did pretty well until about a couple of months of taking it. Instead of taking one percacet every three to four hours a day, I started taking 3 to 4 every hour a day. Anyways, they quit working me. **Go Figure**, So my doctor put me on a capsule call Avinza, its a 24 hour a day pill. in other words, all you need for that day is one pill, it was a time release capsule., But eventually, I wound up taking the medication out of the capsule and started chewing it. Well. Iwas getting higher than a kite.. But my teeth started to hurt from chewing it so much. But you know us addicts, we are pretty darn smart when it comes to drugs and on how to so them. so I started crushing them. Eventaully they quit working for me to. So, of course, I went from taking Percacets to taking avinza and taking Oxycotin....... Today, I am coming up on 4 months again. it will be on the 10th of this month.. All I know is that you will never have to feel that way again, ever! Everyday is a good day if I choose to allow it to be. I take it one day at a time and when the days get to much for me, I take it minute or one second at a time. Its good to be back and on the right road..
I also know that as long as I turn my will and my life over to the lord.(My Higher Power). Things will turn out to be ok. but if I choose to take it back and try to do it my way, then It starts all over again, Its like...... Let the games begin all over again.. I am learning today to be more humble and let the selfishness leave along with my pride and ego... There's awhole world out there to enjoy. and its a high within its self. I choose today to live in that world of peace and harmony. sure I have my bad days and then again, I have my good days. But I can say this. I have alot more good days than I have bad.. Its good to clean and sober and it sure feels good to alert on my feelings and to happy in my life..
Thanks for allowing me to share this with all of you..... Cody

*snugsnug* · 10-05-2006, 06:36 AM

Thanks for the share Cody, I too am an addict, and know exactly how you feel. Congrats on your time!

And keep coming, it works

*admin* · 10-05-2006, 07:16 AM

(((Cody))),

It is so very great to hear from you and that you are sober and clean again.

on 4 months! Way to go!

I know too well about how those prescription drugs can trip you up. I am so very cautious about taking prescription meds now. I hope you continued success in staying sober and clean one day at time. I hope you will continue to come and share with us.

Love,
Tammy

*Prescott* · 10-05-2006, 07:30 AM

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I have alot more good days than I have bad.. Its good to clean and sober and it sure feels good to alert on my feelings and to happy in my life..
Thanks for allowing me to share this with all of you..... Cody

Hi Cody, Thanx for sharing your experience with us. Our disease is "Cunning & baffeling" And prescription drugs even more so. Welcome back!!! Congrats on 4 months !!!

huntersgirl · 11-10-2006, 01:40 PM

congrats!!! i would love to talk to you, email me at acagirl06@excite.com

Doraine · 11-12-2006, 01:16 PM

Hi Cody! Glad you're back on the right track. Keep up the good work.

10-05-2006, 06:12 AM	#1
Cody1958 Newcomer Join Date: Jun 2006 Posts: 4	My Last Relapse: Hello Everyone. Here's alittle about me. I just thought that maybe it would kind of help some out and also, it is just alittle about me, so some of you can get to know me abit more. I am a recovering Herion addict. I also have Persitis in my hips. Arthritis in my lower back and three herniated disc in my lower back, so I have three kind of pain going on. I started taking Percacets about three yuears ago because of my pain. I had 6 years clean and sober at that time. I thought to myself.. Hmmmmm, you have six years clean, you can take a percacet or two for your pain.. and so I did. and I did pretty well until about a couple of months of taking it. Instead of taking one percacet every three to four hours a day, I started taking 3 to 4 every hour a day. Anyways, they quit working me. Go Figure, So my doctor put me on a capsule call Avinza, its a 24 hour a day pill. in other words, all you need for that day is one pill, it was a time release capsule., But eventually, I wound up taking the medication out of the capsule and started chewing it. Well. Iwas getting higher than a kite.. But my teeth started to hurt from chewing it so much. But you know us addicts, we are pretty darn smart when it comes to drugs and on how to so them. so I started crushing them. Eventaully they quit working for me to. So, of course, I went from taking Percacets to taking avinza and taking Oxycotin....... Today, I am coming up on 4 months again. it will be on the 10th of this month.. All I know is that you will never have to feel that way again, ever! Everyday is a good day if I choose to allow it to be. I take it one day at a time and when the days get to much for me, I take it minute or one second at a time. Its good to be back and on the right road.. I also know that as long as I turn my will and my life over to the lord.(My Higher Power). Things will turn out to be ok. but if I choose to take it back and try to do it my way, then It starts all over again, Its like...... Let the games begin all over again.. I am learning today to be more humble and let the selfishness leave along with my pride and ego... There's awhole world out there to enjoy. and its a high within its self. I choose today to live in that world of peace and harmony. sure I have my bad days and then again, I have my good days. But I can say this. I have alot more good days than I have bad.. Its good to clean and sober and it sure feels good to alert on my feelings and to happy in my life.. Thanks for allowing me to share this with all of you..... Cody

10-05-2006, 06:36 AM	#2
snugsnug Servant of Christ Jesus Join Date: Jun 2006 Location: North Carolina Posts: 1,640	Thanks for the share Cody, I too am an addict, and know exactly how you feel. Congrats on your time! And keep coming, it works __________________ We know that it is not our job to win the Kingdoms of the world for ourselves. We simply have to make witness to Jesus Christ and to Him crucified. De Colores

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10-05-2006, 07:16 AM	#3
admin Member Join Date: Jun 2006 Posts: 28,249	(((Cody))), It is so very great to hear from you and that you are sober and clean again. on 4 months! Way to go! I know too well about how those prescription drugs can trip you up. I am so very cautious about taking prescription meds now. I hope you continued success in staying sober and clean one day at time. I hope you will continue to come and share with us. Love, Tammy

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huntersgirl Newcomer Join Date: Nov 2006 Posts: 5	congrats!!! i would love to talk to you, email me at acagirl06@excite.com

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Doraine Trusted Servant Join Date: Jun 2006 Location: Lansford, PA Posts: 1,308	Hi Cody! Glad you're back on the right track. Keep up the good work.