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Mishell1626 · 11-20-2006, 04:31 PM

Hello my name is Michelle and I am an Addict.
This is my story...........
I got clean and sober from Meth (crank) and Alcohol my DOS was
2-4-95.
I recently have been having migraines which lead me to the
use of Norco (pain meds) for the migraines. Well, during this time my
addict took over and I started to abuse them by taking them when I
didn't have that bad of a migraine, taking them to feel better, wake
up, to feeling high, etc. Early sept. I started buying them from
an old friend who sells there Norco. Although the "this is not ok"
thoughts were there I still did it. I knew I needed to stop. So I
I stopped taking them on the 9th of October as planned. Well that is when the more SEVERE problem started.
About 9am on the 10th I came down with what I thought was the
terrible flu, Aching, chills, no energy, Violent sneezing. I felt so
bad. So that night I went and got more Norco so I could "function" It
wasn't until 2 days later that I realized I am physically addicted to
those Norco. I did all kinds of research on the internet and found out yep I was addicted physically to them Not only have I relapsed from 11+ years of recovery but I am physically addicted to these pills too.

With a hectic life raising 3 kids alone, full time career and my kids
in activates. I planed a detox plan and final "jump" Thanksgiving is my last day. I have taken Monday and Tuesday off of
the following week to get through this.

Anyway, there is so much more to the story. Anyone have any thoughts
suggestions, anything PLEASE email me.
I am scared. I am sad. I am afraid to feel the W/D they were so
terrible and I am just scared. I am mad, etc.
I appreciate any and all input you might have
I have done this before but on a much different level. With Crank and Alcohol.

I am scared It won't be so easy to quit . I have read online all the vitamins and suppliments to take to help with the W/D and I have got them all.
I started taking them monday 11-13-06.

Does anyone know How long and how bad the W/D going to be?
I have tapered to 2.5 - 3 pills of 10 mgs a day.
how long after my last pill will I start to feel it?

please pray for me to have a fast recovery and to remove my obsession to use and all denial I have around this

Thank you all so much in advance for your help

happytoday · 11-20-2006, 10:05 PM

HI MY NAME IS JACKIE AND I JUST WANT TO SAY THE I WILL BE PRYING FOR YOU I AM HAPPY TO KNOW THAT YOU ARE GOING TO GET HELP I HAVE A BAB BACK AND I WORK ON MY FEET ALL DAY I HURT ALL THE TIME I HAD SOME STRONG PILLS TO TAKE SO I KNOW WHAT YOU ARE TALKING ABOUT AND YOU STORE IS MAKEING ME THINK ABOUT MYSELF ONE DAY AT A A TIME

peajaye · 11-20-2006, 11:11 PM

Hi Michelle, welcome to cyberrecovery. I don't know anything about that particular drug, but I am familiar with addiction. My dos is 08/20/1987. This is a serious disease as you've just reminded me. I will be praying for you. I admire your desire to do the right thing for you and your kids. Bottom line, as you know you've got to do it for you, but those kids will benefit from having a mom that is clean and available. I wonder if you got clean in NA or on your own? Getting some face to face support is probably a good idea. If you could go to a meeting or two before you plan on withdrawing and get some women's phone numbers. Come here as often as you can. Glad you are here.

*admin* · 11-21-2006, 12:05 AM

Hi Michelle and Welcome, Glad to have you join us. I replied to your other thread here: http://www.cyberrecovery.net/forums/...ead.php?t=6495 . Please continue to share with us. We care.

Love,
Tammy

Doraine · 11-21-2006, 11:34 AM

Hi Michelle
I abused rx drugs and cocaine before I got sober. My withdrawal from drugs was hardly a blip on the radar compared to my withdrawal from alcohol. Pray to have the obsession to use drugs removed and get to meetings. You don't have to do this alone. Good luck with your recovery. Take it one day at a time.

Mishell1626 · 11-21-2006, 04:36 PM

Hi all !
I didn't realize you all check all the board so I posted over here

http://www.cyberrecovery.net/forums/...ead.php?t=6495

THANK YOU ALL SO much for your help and input. Since you all are on both boards I will post to just the new comers one. for now.

thanks so much and PLEASE keep me in your prayers

Nana · 11-24-2006, 11:50 PM

I will pray for you. My name is Nana,

This site is great.you keep coming back.I need you to help me in my recovery

Love Nana

11-20-2006, 04:31 PM	#1
Mishell1626 Just for TODAY Join Date: Nov 2006 Posts: 10	New here relapsed after 11+ years Hello my name is Michelle and I am an Addict. This is my story........... I got clean and sober from Meth (crank) and Alcohol my DOS was 2-4-95. I recently have been having migraines which lead me to the use of Norco (pain meds) for the migraines. Well, during this time my addict took over and I started to abuse them by taking them when I didn't have that bad of a migraine, taking them to feel better, wake up, to feeling high, etc. Early sept. I started buying them from an old friend who sells there Norco. Although the "this is not ok" thoughts were there I still did it. I knew I needed to stop. So I I stopped taking them on the 9th of October as planned. Well that is when the more SEVERE problem started. About 9am on the 10th I came down with what I thought was the terrible flu, Aching, chills, no energy, Violent sneezing. I felt so bad. So that night I went and got more Norco so I could "function" It wasn't until 2 days later that I realized I am physically addicted to those Norco. I did all kinds of research on the internet and found out yep I was addicted physically to them Not only have I relapsed from 11+ years of recovery but I am physically addicted to these pills too. With a hectic life raising 3 kids alone, full time career and my kids in activates. I planed a detox plan and final "jump" Thanksgiving is my last day. I have taken Monday and Tuesday off of the following week to get through this. Anyway, there is so much more to the story. Anyone have any thoughts suggestions, anything PLEASE email me. I am scared. I am sad. I am afraid to feel the W/D they were so terrible and I am just scared. I am mad, etc. I appreciate any and all input you might have I have done this before but on a much different level. With Crank and Alcohol. I am scared It won't be so easy to quit . I have read online all the vitamins and suppliments to take to help with the W/D and I have got them all. I started taking them monday 11-13-06. Does anyone know How long and how bad the W/D going to be? I have tapered to 2.5 - 3 pills of 10 mgs a day. how long after my last pill will I start to feel it? please pray for me to have a fast recovery and to remove my obsession to use and all denial I have around this Thank you all so much in advance for your help

11-20-2006, 11:11 PM	#3
peajaye Member Join Date: Jun 2006 Location: Marietta, GA--atlanta Posts: 946	Hi Michelle, welcome to cyberrecovery. I don't know anything about that particular drug, but I am familiar with addiction. My dos is 08/20/1987. This is a serious disease as you've just reminded me. I will be praying for you. I admire your desire to do the right thing for you and your kids. Bottom line, as you know you've got to do it for you, but those kids will benefit from having a mom that is clean and available. I wonder if you got clean in NA or on your own? Getting some face to face support is probably a good idea. If you could go to a meeting or two before you plan on withdrawing and get some women's phone numbers. Come here as often as you can. Glad you are here. __________________ Recovered from a seemingly hopeless state of mind. PegJean

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11-20-2006, 10:05 PM	#2
happytoday Newcomer Join Date: Oct 2006 Posts: 5	HI MY NAME IS JACKIE AND I JUST WANT TO SAY THE I WILL BE PRYING FOR YOU I AM HAPPY TO KNOW THAT YOU ARE GOING TO GET HELP I HAVE A BAB BACK AND I WORK ON MY FEET ALL DAY I HURT ALL THE TIME I HAD SOME STRONG PILLS TO TAKE SO I KNOW WHAT YOU ARE TALKING ABOUT AND YOU STORE IS MAKEING ME THINK ABOUT MYSELF ONE DAY AT A A TIME

11-21-2006, 12:05 AM	#4
admin Member Join Date: Jun 2006 Posts: 28,249	Hi Michelle and Welcome, Glad to have you join us. I replied to your other thread here: http://www.cyberrecovery.net/forums/...ead.php?t=6495 . Please continue to share with us. We care. Love, Tammy

11-21-2006, 11:34 AM	#5
Doraine Trusted Servant Join Date: Jun 2006 Location: Lansford, PA Posts: 1,308	Hi Michelle I abused rx drugs and cocaine before I got sober. My withdrawal from drugs was hardly a blip on the radar compared to my withdrawal from alcohol. Pray to have the obsession to use drugs removed and get to meetings. You don't have to do this alone. Good luck with your recovery. Take it one day at a time.

11-21-2006, 04:36 PM	#6
Mishell1626 Just for TODAY Join Date: Nov 2006 Posts: 10	Hi all ! I didn't realize you all check all the board so I posted over here http://www.cyberrecovery.net/forums/...ead.php?t=6495 THANK YOU ALL SO much for your help and input. Since you all are on both boards I will post to just the new comers one. for now. thanks so much and PLEASE keep me in your prayers

11-24-2006, 11:50 PM	#7
Nana Trusted Servant Join Date: Sep 2006 Posts: 1,151	I will pray for you. My name is Nana, This site is great.you keep coming back.I need you to help me in my recovery Love Nana