walked, for so long, with my head hung way down

[janbear]

I walked, for so long, with my head hung way down
my hair in my eyes, my face masked with a frown
angry at the world, for all the wrongs I'd been done
in counting my blessings, I couldn't find one

my family had told me I couldn't come round no more
they quit returning my calls, met me at the front door
my friends had gone too, said I'd drove them away
with all the lies that I'd told, and the bills I'd not paid
all of them said it just hurt too much to see
the shell of despair that had closed around me
I couldn't see what they were going on about
though I just needed that next hit, sh!+, didn't they know?

and if they couldn't see that, well, the he!! with them too
and I'd scramble and scrape, but inside I knew. .

that I was dying.
my disease got more healthy, as my health grew
more poor, and all the dope that I shot didn't work anymore.
No matter how much I did, I was still stuck with me
and the ball all around me, of insanity
finally, beat down and crying, I crawled to my knees
cried out to the darkness, God, someone, help me please.

It was then that he showed me these miracle doors
and told me I didn't have to use anymore.
said that it was ok, all the things I had done
that the past was just that, now a new day'd begun
he peeled back the shutters I'd closed on my heart
and gave me the strength to make a new start
my hair doesn't hang in my eyes anymore
and my face wears a smile, where the frown was before
my world is not perfect, I still have my strifes
and lots of pain my past choices have made in my life.

but, little by little, I'm growing happier every day
because God gave me a gift, and showed me N.A.
and those blessings I'd mentioned, that I couldn't find well,
I had a bunch, and am getting more all the time!

So, if you think that your world is a mess
reach out to N.A. and you'll surely be blessed!

Written by john h